Slowly, but surely, I have noticed a change in me…. Don’t know if it was my trip to Singapore and Malaysia (I felt so damn alive), but off lately, I have started to appreciate who I am, what I have accomplished and how far I have come in my quest for peace (Defined as a socially, financially and mentally stable life)…These days I smile a lot, staying positive about life and at my naturally talkative best with people around.
In the past 10 years on this road to be a Doctor, I had become a volatile, unpredictable, depressed soul…Many times it came to me whether I was suffering from a bipolar mood disorder. Staying away from social life, family, being secluded in the world of the hospital life, medical college, books, food and sleeping, did take a toll on me…There was a time I felt completely lost, lonely, alone, angry, frustrated at not being able to lead a relatively normal life (most medicos go through this phase), but I seem to have no sign of that hatred towards life anymore. I guess it’s the satisfaction of being part of a Post Graduate course and knowing at the back of your mind that the future will now be decent enough to lead a good life.
I am now able to give time to my family, travel, watch movies, write, play music, doing everything I wanted my life to be like. I really seem to enjoy the quality of work, respect, power, learning, teaching at KDAH. Also looking forward to the arrival of my juniors in July so that I can start working on my next target –Finish Tintinalli, Harrisons and few other books which will surely make me a better doctor, an all rounder.
Also, the time has come when many of my medical school batch mates, guys included are getting married and I’m being bombarded the same question frequently, “Ab toh tu settle ho gaya hai, kuch problem nai hai, shaadi kab kar raha hai ?” I had always enjoyed my freedom, hassle-free life being single all throughout and wanted to spend my life alone working, traveling, writing and making music,until recently when I read this quote by Jim Carrey, “ I hope everybody could get rich and famous and will have everything they ever dreamed of, so they will know that it is not the answer” which did make me reconsider. As of now and the next 2 years, I want to enjoy myself traveling, exploring, wandering, discovering and being creative.
Few words of wisdom before I finish (you are free to disagree)
1.Work hard, be patient, and most importantly, NEVER GIVE UP…I’m sure there is someone up there watching you.
2. Always smile, no matter what, specially in front of people who don’t like you. It really makes them jealous.
3. Never think too much of your “Friends”, as people will eventually get busy, move on, find new ones and the only people who will remain with you in all the ups and down of life will be your family.
4. Try avoiding “Time pass Relationships” during education years. It really complicates life, plays with your emotions and can screw your future. (I’m ready to be booed now)
5. Don’t give a damn about what others think of you (Are you going to change for them?). Don’t pretend to be who you are not. Don’t let your future drag with the current, instead do what you are best at, what you want to be, choose a branch of your liking, as job satisfaction is really very important in professional life. Initially, you may face the outrage from family and friends, but in the long run, you will be happy.
6……………. Enough of philosophy, remaining boring talks in future posts :p
Thank you for reading, was just bored…. hehe