Ever since in 2nd year when I started realizing that clinical medicine was not meant for me, I had been patiently waiting for my days at LTMMC to end. There was always the ‘something more’ that I kept looking for in life in these past 5 years which made me feel dissatisfied with the things happening around me. Added to that, most people in my batch could not accept the fact that I was different from them…..in my thought process….professional achievements…maturity, etc….for them it was attitude…for me it was just being me and it did not matter what they thought…the feeling of jealousy in their minds was there for me to see and I realized that most of them were only laughing behind my back and among them were ‘Friends’ who were not meant to be permanent.
In my 2nd year of MBBS when my dad underwent the CABG surgery, it was the most difficult time for me to cope with the pressure….My studies suffered, I lost all interest to be a doctor….I just wished somehow these days ended soon….It is a norm that people like to laugh on others to feel good themselves, not realizing what the other person is going through in this life…I hated many of my batch mates for that reason because I never wanted to be their ‘punching bag’. Yet, I continued on my SPIRITUAL AND PROFESSIONAL journey ALONE gathering all my strength to bear the remaining 3.5 years at Sion. Meanwhile, things did happen like the BAND, BMC, winning awards in various events organized By various departments, during college festivals, etc by which I tried to be chirpy, happy and come out of feeling low in college…Soon, I started to enjoy my loneliness….at least no one could hurt me…I became insensitive to people around…I was happy in my own world.
Finally after 4.5 years of entering this institute, on 9th Feb 2010, a day before my birthday, my results were out and I had passed MBBS ‘gracefully’….my happiness knew no bounds….that was the best birthday gift I could ask GOD for after all that I had gone through in the last 4.5 years.
Now, 6 months are over with internship and I can hardly wait for the remaining 6 to get over with soon too….to pursue my goals…to be among my definition of achievers…all-rounders…I spent 2 months preparing for the PG exam but there was always the call from within to follow my dreams…the way to which did not go through the ‘path of medicine’…and after 5 months of constantly fighting with my mind and heart, I decided to pursue an MBA now…This is the most crucial important INDEPENDENT decision of my life… because I know, if I click, everyone will be impressed that I had the courage to do something different…and if I don’t , those will be the people who will be laughing at me calling me an idiot to leave this lucrative, respectful, money minting noble profession to be a clinician…It doesn’t matter to me anymore…I know where I see myself in my professional career…
What makes me write this is because I’m so surprised by the way I feel now…last few days I have been feeling so nostalgic thinking that within 6 months from now, I will be out of the institute…the place where I would have spent glorious 5.5 years of life…I will miss this college, the hospital, the friends, the feel one gets to wear an apron and the stethoscope, the Band, the festivals and the celebration it had been all this while in LTMMC in spite of the constant bombardment of exams all throughout…after all it wasn’t so bad…But the fact remains that I want to continue on my journey…discovering what lies ahead…the surprises life will throw at me…But I’m satisfied with what I will take away from LTMMC…lots of fond memories and of course… the changed name …from Mohit to Dr.Mohit Garg….Forever.